I want to start by saying that I have very limited recollection of writing this. I wanted to write some words to be read at Adam’s funeral but I have whole chunks of time that I cannot remember following his accident. I wanted to share these words as I want everyone to know how special Adam was. I wrote it as a letter to Adam as I didn’t know where to start; somehow directing directly to Adam made the words flow easier.

Leslie, the celebrant who conducted Adam’s service with such personal touches, rang me the day before and went through my words with me and felt compelled to add in reference to a reading she knew off which you will see in italics.

Adam, it was just a few weeks ago we had got back from the most amazing holiday together and you messaged saying that you couldn’t wait to spend the rest of your life with me.

You weren’t wrong but I wish we’d have had so much more time together.

The last year has been the happiest year of my life. Who knew that stopping off for one last drink on a sunny Wednesday night could change my life so much. Before I’d even got home you’d done your research and found me online. You told me that you weren’t a texter but I’ve reread all our messages – I’m surprised we had time to get anything else done this last year.

We talked the night before your accident about the future and the last 12 months knowing it was our anniversary week. The list of things we had done was long – day trips, long weekends, even managed a child free holiday! You showed me how to live life to the fullest and I was so happy.

Taylor was the cherry on top of your already incredible cake. You were the best dad and would do anything for her. Your eyes would light up whenever you spoke about her and you would burst with pride at everything she achieved.

The weekends with the kids aligned and what a family unit we were. My happiest days were the 5 of us going out then finishing the day pigging out at home with a roast or BBQ.

Seeing you with the kids made me fall in love with you even more if that was possible – they adored you just as much as you did them. If the boys grow into a man like you, I know I have done well.

You were everything I ever wanted – even if you were more competitive than me and would never let me win, I would not have changed a thing about you. You were the biggest romantic Teddy bear and would say that we were each other’s happily ever after.

I found a reading that begins; ‘I must be really special, how lucky I have been, to have found someone so wonderful to share my life with me’. Adam you made me feel special; you were MY special.

In the words of our song, “if you knew how happy you are making me, I never thought I’d love anyone so much”. I hope you knew just how true that was for me.

Thank you for the happiest year of my life. I love you, sleep tight Sweet.