Getting up and out of bed everything feels heavy,

I feel like I am wading through treacle just to get ready.

Reality of this truly horrific event is peeking in,

Through the numb shock, I cannot stop myself wondering how things should have been.

I torture myself morning, noon and night wishing I could have changed things,

All of this pointless with the overwhelming aching agony that this brings.

Everything that has happened since you died has been overshadowed by a big black hole,

I cannot imagine ever feeling normal again, let alone, whole.

Forever you will be the missing piece of my life, I will never let your memory be dimmed for sure,

You have shown me real love; death cannot break that as I long for the day when we will be reunited once more.